autumn and everything after

I am never good with words when there is something important to say. My tactic of hiding away in my room listening to Counting Crows, or someone, anyone, say what I think I am thinking is considered 'running away' by someone I know. That term makes my skin crawl, and I know that it's important to face things. I'm often unsure of what is appropriate to say at times like this.

But the facts are these:

I want this picture to surround me.

I am angry.

I will never understand why the world can't be fair

I need Liam to know how happy I am that he woke up.

I am lucky.

The stresses of everyday life have never seemed so unimportant.

Adam always made me laugh.

My thoughts are with Ellie.

I don't want to serve people shoes today.

I feel safest in bed.

I hate that 'these things happen'.

Adam Philby, rest in peace.

You will never be forgotten.